Dear Dad,
Tonight as I prepare to lay down and go to sleep thoughts of you are running through my mind…. Tomorrow, December 4th, will be the first birthday I will experience without you here as a physical presence in my life and I am not certain how the day will go without your smiling face, your beautiful tenor voice singing “happy birthday” as you try and trick me out of that last bite of strawberry cheesecake that some unassuming waitress brings to the table after you have spilled the beans that it’s my birthday to the entire restaurant.
My first birthday without dad…
December 3rd, 2009
What if today was the day?
July 6th, 2009
Many people go thru life as if they were sleepwalking…get up, go to work, come home, eat dinner in front of a tv, play on the computer, go to bed just to get up the next day and repeat the same cycle. Mixed in here may be issues with the boss, complaints about hating one’s job, bills being too high and either being ‘ok’ with ones life or possibly experiencing a mild or moderate form of depression or anxiety on a daily basis. This is a life, this is an existence and unfortunately many people live this cycle day after day for decades until their time has expired and their life is over. What kind of legacy is that?
Dad’s passing…
December 10th, 2008
These past few days seem to be a blur….almost as if the events were surreal. Less than a week ago I celebrated my birthday and at the end of the day I posted on facebook, thanking everyone for the birthday wishes, and sharing that the only thing missing was hearing my dad’s beautiful tenor voice singing “Happy Birthday” to me. For on my birthday, he lay in his bed, illness consuming him, his mind fading, unable to care for himself, he was waiting to die. I have known for the past few months that his time was near and there were days when I saw how much pain he was in and I prayed for his peace and comfort, but there is a huge difference between knowing someone will pass on and when it actually occurs. Two days after my birthday, my dad left this earth and my world will never be the same.
